Alright, it’s time for me to face the truth and make some tough decision in confessing here. I’m not doing this to sell anything right now. I just want to share what has been going on in the scenes of my life because I think it’s something a lot of us go through and I believe my story may inspire some people down the road or at least give them some courage.

I’m sure you have noticed how infrequent my blog posts have been and my failed attempts to get back to blog posting and business duties over the last year and half.

So what exactly is the reason? Am I shutting down this website? I thought about it, to be honest, and I accidentally did let my other domain expired. I even lost a lot of money because of that…Oops! But you can probably tell from that this wasn’t about money at all. It was something deeper..

Simply put, here’s what happened to me. I lost my drive…Yes, I know, I talk about productivity and chasing your goals and I honestly tried convincing myself to get it back, but none of those really helped me. It wasn’t that I didn’t have goals…in fact, I did. I thought about my business almost every day but I just never showed up!

Here’s the reason why…..

You see, I had lost my intrinsic motivation. I did sit down and create a couple of different products. You just never heard of them. I sat down and revised my strategic and marketing plans, changed things here to make it work but something just didn’t feel right.

Also, it took me a long while to realize what was going on. I thought it was a “phase” of my career life, so I waited patiently for my inherent motivation to come back because I knew it wasn’t a lack of time, goals, plans, action lists or some “push”. It was a matter of having that inner motivation that makes you jump out of bed in the morning, excited and ready to do something wonderful!

Precisely, what is wrong with me? Here’s the scoop….

I was going through something of a conflict between my original vision for my business and what I thought I needed to do to reach my business goals. You see, I began reading all about business growth and such and got really uncomfortable about some of the things I was learning like focusing more on aggressive selling and having money as the most important thing in a business.

You see, I was learning things that contradicted with my vision and being told that was the only way to improve it.

Whew! That’s a tough one to handle. Basically, I had two choices there. First one is I could help my business grow more but I might be able to lose my objective. Second is be complacent with whatever is happening and stay where I was.

Can you guess which one I chose? Yes, I decided to stay without developing my business (which is why the products I created never saw the light of the day because I was scared of losing something more fundamental – my values).

Did my turmoil end there?

Unfortunately, it didn’t. There was other side of me who wanted to fulfill her dreams and make it big while seeing her business grow more. Trust me; I did everything in power to silence this one!

You think, what is my main goal for coming back?

As you can see, I had almost given up on my dreams to protect my values but I was unhappy about it because I wasn’t working on with my vision. And so I kept tossing and turning while trying to get my objective back.

It took me a one good year and a half to realize that I could still work on with my idea and still keep my morals/principles.

But how will I do it?

Well, I have decided to take the road least taken so to speak. You see, so many businesses fall into this trap of maximizing growth that they completely forget about their vision and their customers.

I have determined that I’m going to take a different approach and my focus will be on the customers and the business itself. Yes, I know that if I use this approach, my business will probably grow at a slower rate, however, I’d rather apply this than use the “Screw everything but the money” strategy. And I know in utilizing it, I will be happy!

So here’s the moral of the story:

1. If you ever have to choose between short term success and your vision and values, choose your vision and values. For in selecting these two, you add fuel to your desire that makes you achieve your goals and attain the inner happiness you want to.

2. Sometimes it’s better to pause, think and do the right thing than doing something (that you don’t believe in) just for the sake of doing it. I know I’ll have a rough time forgiving myself having been taken the road on focusing in money matters only.

So folks, there you go, that’s what happened in my year and a half.

I’m very excited to be back and I look forward to a wonderful journey ahead.